I know I say this every month, but I can’t believe how much my sweet baby has grown. She is starting to loose some of her baby qualities and take up some little girl qualities. I was looking though her newborn cloths the other day and it made me want to cry. I have absolutely loved each stage, but I also desperately miss her tinny squishyness.
Weight: 15 lbs
Height: 26 in
Challenges: Going back to work. Even though I love my job, I hate it. If I have to work, this is a good one. I enjoy teaching and the kids…. I just absolutely HATE being away from Em. I miss her so much when I am at work. Thankfully I am busy the whole day so it goes fast. It is such a bummer though that only get a little bit of time with my baby each day. A good portion of that time is actually spent when she is cranky. Her happiest time of the day, I am at work :/
When she is asleep I am busy trying to get housework, laundry, and work done. I'm back to the days when showering is a luxury. It is a bummer to not have time to do things that I enjoy. By the time I sit on the couch… all I want to do is sit. I don’t really have the energy to craft.
Em’s new tricks and triumphs:
She can now sit unassisted! I still spot her because we have wood floors…. but she is good enough that if we were on carpet I wouldn’t need to do that.
She is getting so close to crawling. She is definitely on the move. She can army crawl across the floor…. just a tad slowly.
She has started sucking on her toes. It is so cute!
Em loves drinking water from a cup. She gets so excited and tries to hold the cup herself. Sometimes she doesn’t spill a drop and sometimes it gets all over.
She is slowly packing on chub. She still has a skinny waist, but has rolls on her thighs.
Apparently she loves the bottle now and even holds it all by herself.
Things that I love:
I love how interactive she is. I love that she is a total mommas girl. She loves me so much and with going back to work I need that reassurance. I love how serious she takes blowing raspberries…. she works hart at those things (see last two pics). I love how easy she is. I love that she is ticklish. I love her fluffy cloth butt. I have a minor cloth addiction now :)… and opposite from that I love her cute tinny nakie butt. I love how she laughs hysterically when you blow on her tummy.
Things I have learned:
Working sucks. pumping suck. being a stay at home mom is easier than a working mom (sorry but in my case, this is true). As a working mom I don’t get to spend time with my baby and I still need to get just as much done with far less time to do it.
I am really working on being content in the place where I am. I am grateful for a job that I love. I am grateful that I can financially contribute to my family to make our lives more comfortable. I am grateful that her grandparents watch her…. and they do it for free. I am grateful that she gets to spend time with her cousin while I am at work. I am grateful that I have support. I am grateful that Lan drops her off (did it today and it was heartbreaking walking out the door as she was reaching for me and fussing). I am grateful that I get to pick her up. I am grateful for the time I do get to spend with her…. I know not all babies make it.
This girl is constantly changing. Now I know Em is ready to be laid down in bed when she stops nursing and starts wiggling. I miss when she would let me nurse her to sleep, but am happy that she has good sleep habits. There is now way I want to rock her to sleep when she is 5. I'm glad she can fall asleep on her own…. but I do miss the snuggles.